Whatever it is, maybe you’ll have better luck than that boy did finding it, Bob said on a sigh, and Blythe suddenly sat up a little straighter, the corner of her mouth turning down.
Madi squealed in a perfect imitation of Coco. Oh, my God! Where? Can I see? Where is she?My eyes flickered to the closed bedroom door. No doubt Coco would be awake now after that squeal-fest.
However, Estelle wriggled out of my arms and hauled her friend to the door. Tomorrow, oh so eager aunt.You’re anything you want to be.You’d better be prepared for an interrogation tomorrow, Stel. You’ve been a seriously bad friend to leave all of this out.
I promise to give you day by day updates.Starting with what the hell you were doing flying in the middle of a thunderstorm when you’d claimed you didn’t want to go to Bora Bora with me?
Estelle groaned. Don’t make me feel guiltily for wanting my own space.
I can and I will. It’s my right as your best friend who was left behind to run your dead existence.No, I said, pushing back to stand on my own. Don’t. Be. Nice. To me. Oh, great, now I was hyperventilating, too. I’m like…psycho over here, petrified that we’ll get home and you’ll leave me, and then you go and do this super-sweet thing. And it’s perfect! I shouted, like he’d done something wrong.
Oh God, Rach. He reached for me, and I retreated until I was standing on the perfect deck that overlooked the perfect water in perfect Fiji that my perfect boyfriend had set up for us.I’m so sorry, I cried, unable to stop. It’s so nice, and just…everything, and here I am losing my shit because I’m so scared of losing you.
You’re not going to lose me, he promised, grasping my upper arms. We’re never going down that road again.It’s just that all of this… I’ve tried so hard to block you out, to keep my walls up, but it’s like you Trojan horsed me, because you’ve always been there. I never stood a chance. I’ve hated you so much because it was the only thing to keep me from admitting how very much I loved you. Holy shit, why couldn’t I stop crying? Every word was yelled, ungraceful and ugly, yet raw and so very real.