I meant, he said through clenched teeth, do you think she can raise the baby on her own?
I was moving before I gave thought about what I was doing. My hand folded into his, and when he hauled me into his lap, knees on either side of his hips, my arms went around his waist.He clasped the sides of my face and, without saying a word, he kissed my cheek once and then twice, and he kissed away each tear that fell, and a heartbeat passed.
I broke. Ripped right open.He made a sound in the back of his throat and then pulled my face to his chest. Tears streamed down my face, dampening the front of his shirt within seconds. His arms swept around me and he held me tight, held me close as I cried for Megan, for the guys, for Abbi and Dary, and for myself.We lay side by side in bed, our faces separated by only a few inches. It was late, well past midnight, and the morning was going to come soon enough, but neither of us were sleeping. We had whispered to one another after the tears had subsided. I told him about the guilt, how it weighed on me, about how I wanted nothing more than to go back to that night and make different choices. I told him about the nightmares and how my mom knew the truth, how disappointed I knew she really was but wasn’t saying. I admitted to wishing I hadn’t quit volleyball. I told him how I talked to Keith today and what I realized. I even told him about Abbi.
Are you going to talk to them? he asked. Abbi and Dary?I need to. My arms were folded against my chest. It’s not going to be easy, but I need to. I shifted my legs. Has Abbi said anything to you about the accident?
No. Nothing beyond what everyone else has said. Nothing about you. He inched closer. Abbi has gotten really close with Keith, and I think she’s helping him deal with everything on his end. He reached over the small distance and hooked his fingers around a strand of my hair that had fallen across my cheek. What’s going on with Keith is so different. No one blames you or your family. They don’t know what you told me, and even if they did, I think most people would understand you made a mistake.
But with Keith, everyone knows his family furnished the alcohol. They were the adults, and it’s really tearing his family up, Sebastian explained quietly. No one is really saying anything to Keith, but he’s having a rough time. Not to sound like an ass, but he’s letting his friends help him and...I do. Cody gave me that smile, and my expression turned bland. I like choices, he added. Lots of choices.
Thinking that sounded like a really poor sexual innuendo, I shook my head and walked away. Someone kill me now, I said to the girls as I grabbed a stack of menus.Hey, don’t leave yet. Megan twirled on the stool. While you were busy adulting and I was busy ignoring Phillip, Keith texted Abbi and asked her out.
Oh, really? I cradled the menus to my chest.To his party tonight, Abbi clarified.