And I mean it. I'm tired of waiting. Tired of second guessing. We aren't guaranteed any kind of future. I want to live my life now. Which means being with Fen. Loving him. Regardless of what the future holds. I spent so much time worrying about who would make the best king, I failed to consider that fate might conspire to take the choice from me altogether. I almost lost him once in the battle, and again at the hands of Levi. I won't lose him to my own foolishness now.
Violet’s mouth opens, then closes, like a cute little fish gasping for air. I don’t know? I-I… Her pert nose wrinkles. Shoot!Dammit, I groan. I’m really sorry I mentioned it.
N-No, it’s okay. How long have we been here, an hour and a half? That’s a long time for me. She looks proud. Beaming.Must be because you’re comfortable around me, huh? I wink—actually fucking wink—teasing. I don’t make you nervous anymore.Actually, yes i-it probably means you don’t make me nervous anymore. Her pink lips are still glossy and bent into a bashful smile.
But no one feels comfortable with me.Why? I stare at her like she’s bat-shit crazy. She must be.
Don’t take this the wrong way, but…mostly I think it’s your size.
Uh, how would I take that the wrong way?Things with Speedy are going really well. For the past three weeks, we’ve stuck to our rule. We keep our hands to ourselves during the day, and at night, we fuck like rabbits on Viagra.
I’m surprised I’ve managed not to fuck her in the daylight hours because she’s so damn sexy. But the wait until she’s off the clock is like the best kind of foreplay.I can’t get enough of her. And it’s not just the sex. It’s her. She’s smart and funny—no one has ever made me laugh like she does—and she’s just so fucking gorgeous. I love spending time with her. She’s like no woman I’ve ever known before.
She sleeps in my bed every night, and of course, with her comes Gucci, who has set up a permanent sleeping residence on the chair in my bedroom.But I don’t care. The goat has surprisingly started to grow on me. And, to have Speedy, I’ll take anything. Even a head-butting goat.