I swallowed hard, believing him. Maybe. But I have to go to be sure.
My body burned for her; my ears strained for her answer. Because… I licked her lips, begging her to finish her sentence. I had to hear why she cared. It meant the world to me.My stomach tensed, recognizing yet another change in me. I would never have cared about another person loving me before. Now, I needed it more than anything. I would never be able to remove the dark tendencies I’d lived with all my life, but I slowly grew a capacity for calmness.
Almost as if the monster took what it needed, then gave me a brief respite where I could be the love-struck, considerate man I wanted to be for her.Tess kissed me back, whispering into my mouth.Because you’re my monster in the dark, and I’m yours.
Strip me bare, pull my hair, I don’t care, just take me there.I need that high, I need that pain, it’s the only thing that keeps me sane...
The lift doors opened, breaking our moment.
Q sighed, letting me go with a grimace. It looked as if he couldn’t stand the thought of not touching me.You’re strong, precious, but that’s her blood under your fingernails.
I couldn’t breathe. I can’t breathe!Get out. Get out. Get out! I bolted upright, then immediately fell back down again. My ribs stabbed me and I saw stars, tripping into faintness. Wet coughs grabbed my lungs, drowning me even as guilt pushed me further into madness.
Drugs. I needed drugs. I needed something to dull this murdering emotional agony. I needed the smog to take me far, far away so my mind didn’t crack.I want to die. I deserve to die. I hurt them. All those birds. I did it. I did what they asked. Give me something. Anything!