I feel guilty that I forgot about her mom’s upcoming birthday. I used to be very close to her family.
You’re full of surprises. These were the first words he had spoken to me in months. I savored the sound of his voice before I answered.Why? Because I can dance? I lifted my hair off of my neck and looked him in the eye.
Caleb shook his head and did something with his lips that almost made me keel over.No. Because you came…because you’re wearing that dress, he smiled, eyeing my cleavage. and not because you can dance, but because you did dance.You think I’m uptight, I sigh, watching a girl throw up in an Azalea a hundred yards away.
Everyone thinks you’re uptight.I knew he wasn’t saying it to be mean. It was just fact—like green apples being sour.
You’re like a pair of boots with six inch heels. All attitude and sexiness, but you make people feel uncomfortable just looking at you.
Well, I had officially graduated from Llama’s to footwear.Kit said that sometimes he was aware that he was dreaming, and it was still frightening, but less so because he knew he’d wake up. So we talked about him fighting back during those aware dreams. Hurting the lions before they could hurt him. He was skeptical, but he said he’d try. A week later he came running up to me at school, said he’d done what I’d told him. He’d ripped the lions’ jaws open with his bare hands. Fought them off.
Did he have the dream again? I ask.Yes, Greer said. But, less and less frequently. Sometimes he still had it before he left PT. But he conquered some sort of subconscious fear, and he wasn’t afraid of it anymore.
Now that the story is over, I’m not sure why she told it to me. And then it clicks. The night Kit and I took a walk through my apartment complex. My asking him about having a Greer-inspired tattoo. ‘Don’t fear the animals.’ That was hers. I feel sick with jealousy. So much more meaning than a flower, or cross, or even her name. It is their history. Their bond. And what right do I have to be jealous? He isn’t even mine. I am not in the chain of girlfriends; Della is.He’s going to be in Santa Fe next weekend, Greer says.